I am my own worst enemy when it comes to sitting down and taking the time to write. I make excuses such as, "I don't have time", "I'm too busy", "I have nothing to write about".I should always make time for something I enjoy. I'm never too busy, that's such a sad excuse. There's always something to write about, it may not be the most interesting subject, but there is always something to write about. I am really disappointed in myself for not being consistent. I was doing so well in Europe, I was writing almost every day. Maybe it was the fact that I had literally nothing to do, but sight see, people watch, and take time to focus on myself. I came back to America and lost my sense of freedom. How ironic because this is "the land of the free". Well, it certainly does not seem that way after recent events, but that is a topic for another day. As the New Year approaches, I find myself reflecting on the past year, as many of us do. There have been many devastating events in the United States and I have a lot of feelings about this, but I feel fearful in writing about them because you never know who will read them. It's usually best to keep quiet when it concerns the country as a whole or the government. I would not want anything I say to come back and haunt me in the future. So, I will continue to only write about my life and what is happening in it. I wish I had kept this updated. I wish I hadn't been so lazy. I wish I hadn't made so many excuses to not write. It's never too late to make up for it though. It's almost a New Year and with that I have an opportunity to change for the better. I always say I want to focus on myself and I do, but probably not enough. Obviously, not enough, because I barely ever sit down and write anymore and man do I love writing. It's such an easy escape. It is an outlet. This year was a bit of a difficult one for me. I want to break this down into each month. I'm going to make a post for each month. This may take me a while, but I'm going to start now and see where that takes me. As for anyone that actually has been looking at this and waiting for me to post again, I appreciate you. And even if no one is looking at this and no one actually takes the time to read what I write, I don't care. This blog is for me. This blog is for anyone that wants to read it. I'm not asking you to read it, but if you want to, it's here. It's a little peak into my life and maybe there is some useful information for you within that. You'll have to read to figure that out though.
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Maddie Lang
Dreamer. Adventurer. Wallflower. Lover. Fighter. Kentuckian / Californian. Finding my purpose in the world. Archives
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