Well, after a full month of indulging in all of the precious things America has to offer, I feel I can finally sit down and reflect. I hadn't given much thought to what I would do with this blog after I returned home. Considering I'm not traveling anymore, there's not much to tell and not much for me to show you. I have updated my Flickr (something that I've been meaning to do for months), I will continue to post worthy photography shots of mine on there, but as far as this blog.. I don't know. I would like to still write about my experiences in my life and I guess I can do just that. When the time comes and I feel like I've had an experience worthy of writing about, I will come here to tell my story. As for updates on my travels, I don't plan on going anywhere anytime soon except maybe LA to eat some Qdoba or something. However, spring break will be here before I know it and I'll want to do something then. Probably go to Yosemite and some other places in California. It seems there are still people who look at this blog, so in that case, I update every now and then.
I guess some of you may be wondering how I am doing. I can't even begin to describe the feelings I've felt throughout this whole journey. From being so terrified to leave to not wanting to leave then to wanting to quit in the middle and then being sad and happy to go back home. It was interesting coming back to the United States after spending so many months in a foreign country. I mean just looking and feeling the money again was a weird thing for me. Driving for the first time in 8 months was like WHOA. I got in the car and I was like what do I do first?!!???! Not really, but kind of. I wasn't as bad as I thought I was going to be though. Seeing my dog was the most amazing thing in the world. Just so much genuine happiness and love in that moment. She was crying and kissing me because she was so happy to see me then nibbling too because she was mad at me for having left. She's lying next to me on my bed right now probably dreaming about chasing squirrels or something. I am so happy to be back with her, you have no idea. When I first got back, I was spending like almost every day with my best friend. We cried when we saw each other at the airport, it was cute and weird. I've been eating In n Out a ridiculous amount and just eating out in general a lot. I went to the store and bought 2% milk and chugged a whole damn glass or two of that stuff. The milk in Spain does not taste the same and I love milk so it was really liberating drinking that glass of milk. It felt so good. It tasted so good. Sharp cheddar cheese tasted amazing. Macaroni and cheese, oh my god. Cinnamon Toast Crunch AHHHHH forgot how much I loved every thing. I gained like 10 pounds this month lol. I'm focusing on school a lot which is good, but I don't have a job so I have a lot of free time (which I should spend studying) and I'm also super broke. I mean I have money for like necessary things but as myself, me, I have none of my own money. Living in Europe for 8 months sure does put a damper on your savings, oh wait, I didn't have any savings. All my income from Macy's... where did it go???? I'm kinda lonely right now. I don't have many friends here in San Diego. Kind of sadly realized that when I got back and it only mattered to like 3 people. It's ok though. I got Zoey. And a couple of people I can count on. I'm trying dating, but it's hard. I don't like it. I'm always getting attention from the wrong people. Like the ones I don't like are more interested than the one I like. Boooooo. Cuddling Zoey at night sometimes just isn't enough, ya know? I do miss Europe. I will say that. I miss Spain and I miss my friends there. I would like to go back but I don't know if it'd be to live there, probably just visit. All I know is I want to be in California for now, who knows what I will want in a year from now? Sidenote, it's really weird looking back at my Timehop from last year and seeing myself talk about moving to Europe for 8 months and now whoa it's over and here I am. Time works in mysterious ways.
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Maddie Lang
Dreamer. Adventurer. Wallflower. Lover. Fighter. Kentuckian / Californian. Finding my purpose in the world. Archives
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